Let love in……
I’ve been feeling empty again, like some piece of my heart is missing and there is nothing I can do to fill it in. I want so much to feel like a complete person, but often my striving is in vain. The harder I try to fill it up, the more empty I feel. Part of that, I’ve realized, comes from closing myself off to love. It hurt so much when this stupid love shattered my heart that I started building up a wall around my heart as a protection. But when you build a wall, you keep everyone out, not just the one you intended. I didn’t want to hurt, so I shut off my emotions so I wouldn’t have to feel. But it didn’t work, not really. I’m worse off than I was before. I realize now that I need to tear down the wall I’ve built up around my heart. I’ll be more vulnerable, yes, but there is no other way for me to feel complete. Without pain however am I supposed to understand love?
